Kissing You in Public

Few days ago I hang out with a friend. We talked a lot about daily stuff and suddenly he looked down to his feet. I knew that something was wrong. So, I asked him to tell me what's on his mind. He said, 'Cicil, I'm going to say something to you. But I know that … Continue reading Kissing You in Public →

What Kill Us The Most

Few days ago, I got a text message from my cousin. He's one big fan of the late MJ. He asked me a question ... I thought it was just a random text. Cousin: Do you know what kill MJ? Me: Drugs? Cousin: Emptiness Me: Sucks, hey! Then I started to think ... Maybe my … Continue reading What Kill Us The Most →

Personal Meaning of Delusional Belief

For the past three months, I've been busy dealing with my thesis completion. It is about the application of Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT) for Psychotic Individuals. As a guidance for therapy, I use CBT modules from Center for Clinical Intervention, Perth, WA. A colleague from Sydney suggested me to try this modul in Indonesia. So, … Continue reading Personal Meaning of Delusional Belief →

Sacrament of Reconciliation

This Sunday mass (June 13, 2010) was about reconciliation. The first reading (2Sam12:7-10,13) was talking about King David after his sinful action with Bathsheba, the wife of Uriah. King David was committed to 3 sinful actions at once. First, he slept with Bathsheba, who happened to be the wife of his own soldier. Second, he … Continue reading Sacrament of Reconciliation →

Personal Review: Sex and The City 2

I watched Sex and The City 2 yesterday (Thursday) during lunch time. I was in the solitary mood and not watching a kind of 'heavy movie' and so I bought the ticket for myself. The beginning of the movie was quite cute, gay wedding! It confirmed me even more about the numbers that gay are … Continue reading Personal Review: Sex and The City 2 →

My Offering To God

I went to a Friday mass this evening at World Trade Centre, Surabaya. The celebrant was Father Adrian A. During his homily, he said this sentence - and repeat that! - : "Your life now is a gift from God. But what you'll become is your gift for God!" I'm writing this after having a … Continue reading My Offering To God →

At the Airport

(This piece is written on Feb 6, 2010 - Juanda International Airport, Surabaya, Indonesia) One place where you can see many people with their unique styles and appearances is at the airport. Today, as I am sitting and sipping my tea, I see hundreds of people passing by. From businessman (with suit, leather bag and … Continue reading At the Airport →

Personal Review: Up In The Air

At first, I watched this movie because a friend of mine recommended it to me. At last, I have to agree that this movie is a good choice of his. I thought this movie was just about trips, Flight Attendants or stories connected with aircraft. But, two weeks ago, with snacks on my lap and … Continue reading Personal Review: Up In The Air →

Light Talk on The Weekend

Last Saturday was a day full of laughter and tears. I was with my best friend on our way to a big shopping centre. During 45-minutes trip, we talked a lot about our happenings, in the past few days. The chat was turning into something unpleasant, because we were hitting a topic that was not … Continue reading Light Talk on The Weekend →

Happiness: Gay Perspective

I just had a long chat with my gay best friend. I don’t know why my life is surrounded by them, gay and lesbian. Lately, it becomes more and more absurd for me. I heard his story of living a double life, because he just can’t walk out and be himself. Because most of the … Continue reading Happiness: Gay Perspective →