People call me crazy when they learn about my plan of going back to school and do a PhD. Some would call me as an ambitious person, some would simply asked: "What is it that you're looking for?". My response was simply smiling. I had to wait for 15 year to finally get the scholarship … Continue reading Best lesson learned: I failed my PhD
Author: Cicilia Evi
Dear Parents … See What You Made Me Do
One man told me that he has no reasons to stay alive. For him, life is a matter of living one day at a time, waiting to die. Whenever he hops on the plane, he wishes that the plane will crash and he can die. He does not have the bravery to take his own … Continue reading Dear Parents … See What You Made Me Do
Tribute to Glenn Fredly
Last week, on Wednesday, 8/4/2020 - one of my favourite Indonesian musicians passed away after battling with meningitis. I did not know the news, until about midnight when my husband told me: "Have you heard that Glenn Fredly passed away?" I was nursing my baby girl, stopped for a few seconds, tried to digest what … Continue reading Tribute to Glenn Fredly
Retrieving My Blog!
It's been more than a year since the last time I wrote in here. Back to 2018, I had a lot of happenings. I was pregnant and gave birth to my second child, a cute and super-easy baby girl. I was accepted into Doctoral degree program at QUT and finally, received a full scholarship from … Continue reading Retrieving My Blog!
I was Fearful and I Enjoyed It
I would say that I am blessed (or lucky) to be in my position. I am where I am with my hard work and support from special people in my inner circle. However, none of my friends nor family know that I have been holding onto fear for so long. I was always fearful and … Continue reading I was Fearful and I Enjoyed It
Drowning into Books
Happy weekend, everyone! These past few weeks, I've noticed on my Facebook wall numerous people shared the status on Harry Potter's 20th anniversary. I can't believe how fast time flies! I was not a good reader when I was young. My mom used to tell bedtime stories for me and my twin brothers, but never … Continue reading Drowning into Books
Happiness at A$45
What is happiness? It takes a lot of time and effort to define happiness. Some people say that in order to be happy, we need to seek for it. Some will seek for happiness among their pile of money, some will seek among their contacts and some others will seek among their freedom. As for … Continue reading Happiness at A$45
At The End of The Day, We All Need Company
I met one young little girl just a while ago. She looked fierce and I could see it from the way she rolled her eyes in front of me. Fortunately, she did not refuse when I escorted her to my counseling room and within a few minutes, the wall was down completely. She told me … Continue reading At The End of The Day, We All Need Company
It Will Be Given To You Accordingly
We all know the saying of "The grass is greener on the other side" - and that's ny current struggle. Whenever I look at my friends' social media, I would wonder to myself - I wish it was me. For me, the most wonderful dream is to travel around the world, to speak different language, … Continue reading It Will Be Given To You Accordingly
Rubber Duck and My Son
Around 15 years ago, at Child Psychopathology class, my favorite lecturer shared her own experience of handling separation anxiety symptoms showed by her son. Back then she had to leave her two-year old son to pursue her study at the Netherlands. When she returned, her son started to show specific behavior, in which he would … Continue reading Rubber Duck and My Son