Happiness at A$45

What is happiness? 

It takes a lot of time and effort to define happiness. Some people say that in order to be happy, we need to seek for it. Some will seek for happiness among their pile of money, some will seek among their contacts and some others will seek among their freedom. 

As for me,  I’m blessed for I am able to meet a lot of other people who told me that happiness is indeed inside of us. We just need to believe that we are worthy of creating our own happiness. We are worthy to be happy with ourselves. 

I have a chronic condition of being unhappy with myself. I’m fat (never in my life I wear size below L). I can’t draw my eyebrows properly (my Aunt will stop in the middle of any conversation to remind me that I need to draw my eyebrows properly!). I’m not confident and sometimes I deliberatly look out for some positive comments from my closest ones. 

I’m afraid to walk outside the norm. I don’t dare to do something different. 

That’s my pity eyes looking at me. 

But then, I decided that I need to do something that I’ve never did in a long time. Starting small, by cutting my long hair. I had the same hairstyle for almost 14 years! And somehow I was so afraid to change it, because normally women will choose long hair – as well as the men. But honestly, who cares! 

So off I go to cut my hair. Thanks to my dear friend @veina – who was there with me when I decided to cut my hair. She was so surprised and yet, very supportive with my decision. 

I posted my photo below with my new hair. I’m happy with my decision and will not regret my spending of A$45. 

I believe that happiness is indeed inside of us. I can create my own happiness. I am worthy!